People like to think of themselves as capable of making rational decisions for their careers and personal lives – but life does not usually follow a straight line. Journalist Susan Kellam shares her memorable career covering, and helping shape, rock-and-roll history, interspersed with family memories as she searches for the reasons her brother took his own life at age thirty-nine. Her book is a reflective, entertaining, poignant, and moving look back at a remarkable life juxtaposed with one that was cut too short. She started her career at Rolling Stone magazine when typewriters were still being flung across offices. Eventually leaving the rock-and-roll world for straight journalism, she received a 1985 Folio Award for a three-part series in The NY Times, "Battling for a Prize: Radio Station License." Her work has also appeared in The Washington Post, Washingtonian Magazine, Congressional Quarterly, The Baltimore Sun, and numerous other places. The Obama administration tapped her to edit the Economic Report of the President for the four years of his second term; the Biden administration did the same for his first year.